Resolutions. I was listening to the commentary from Times Square leading to 2017 about resolutions and something struck me. How not only are New Year's resolutions themselves, but also the way we talk about them, so indicative of how things used to be for me. We would make a commitment for our own good (rarely the greater good), a bit of self-improvement, and (at least in my case), by the time Lent rolled around in February I would have to make a whole new commitment to self-improvement. Resolutions have a shelf life of maybe a week....and that's only because you have to eat that food you bought. We give up before we even start. We release ourselves from achievement before we've even tried.
I've lived nothing but change and tumult for these last couple months. And not only because I moved from Seattle to Denver and changed jobs over the holidays, and not only because the aftermath of election day launched my commitment to Never Forget 11/9 and get activist. When thinking about typical resolutions (prune through your closet, get rid of junk, eat healthier), I'm actually doing a lot of them already compared to 2016. I think the tumult I had not anticipated was of the internal and relational variety. By stepping out unapologetically into the sunlight, I found that my light reflected made some cover their eyes and turn away. The more I became the person I am and I embrace the person I am meant to be...the more parts of my former life reject me. And I have a choice...do I reach back out and keep those parts of myself at all costs? Or do I let those relationships pass away with the former parts of myself?
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I've lived nothing but change and tumult for these last couple months. And not only because I moved from Seattle to Denver and changed jobs over the holidays, and not only because the aftermath of election day launched my commitment to Never Forget 11/9 and get activist. When thinking about typical resolutions (prune through your closet, get rid of junk, eat healthier), I'm actually doing a lot of them already compared to 2016. I think the tumult I had not anticipated was of the internal and relational variety. By stepping out unapologetically into the sunlight, I found that my light reflected made some cover their eyes and turn away. The more I became the person I am and I embrace the person I am meant to be...the more parts of my former life reject me. And I have a choice...do I reach back out and keep those parts of myself at all costs? Or do I let those relationships pass away with the former parts of myself?
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Behold, God's dwelling is with
the human race. He will dwell with them
and they will be his people and
God himself will always be with them.
He will wipe every tear from their eyes,
and there shall be no more
death or mourning, wailing or pain,
for the old order has passed away.
The one who sat on the throne said,
"Behold, I make all things new."
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